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With a loud gun shot the bodies of two people fell to the ground, no one saw the killer just the sound of the shot lingered into Bekiis ear again.
It had been 3 years since her parents passed away, and only 6 months since her family got killed in a plane crash halfway to
Her cell went off playing…’This charming man’ over and over again. She couldn’t bare to pick it up and hear her friends fake the ‘babe get up, remember the good things eh?’ speech again .All she wanted was someone to get the gun, cock it and out it in her mouth, then and only then the pain and fear would go away and she’d embrace her family again…But this was life, reality and nothing was coming..
Fuck.
The morning light crept through the blackout blinds only to make me more pissed off. Another sleepless night in a hotel that thinks I’m a pest even though the room is being paid for…just not by me.
The thumping on the door was another wake up call. Mr. Incher [ex best friend’s dad’s boss who now manages Aiden] came to deliver the news on where I’d be staying for a few weeks or even a few months...
‘I’m pretty sure you’ll like this place, it’s got people I know you’ll like and they don’t care what you do as long as you’re sweet’
Oh great! What’s that? Another hotel in another part of a country that killed my life?
‘No just wait and find out’
The SUV this bloke had was an ‘OK’ size but could have been in better condition. The Stereo was pumping Iron Maiden out at a volume that would shred your ears, but to us…well it was quiet. Mr. Incher sang and played air guitar all the way until we got to this place.
A bus…a bus of what?
2 guys came out beer in hand looking pissed but both wearing odd clothing…boxers and a skin tight top. Mr. Incher spoke to the one with Snakebites so I introduced myself to the one with make-up that matched mine. It was WiL.
The two men came back hugging and looking happy, only when WiL joined them staring at me something was going on…that something was me. All 4 of us grabbed something from the SUV and headed to the all black bus only 200 yards away. That was looking pretty fine for a bus.
The door swung open leaving a stench of coffee [Starbucks <3] and ciggies [Drum] to waft up my nose, this kinda felt like home again. We all pilled in and saw what this bus was looking fine about.
[A few minuets later]
Mr. Incher left so it’s me and these guys.
‘Hey, I’m Nick and I’m the bassist and yeah we are Aiden’
‘Well you already know me but what the heck, I’m WiL and I’m the singer and I do believe this is the second time we’ve met’
‘ha ha yeah we have WiL…Ok so I’m Bekii and I’m a singer and bassist but I’m not in a band because…well I’m not going there as I’ll cry, I’m 17, 18 in a month, and I’m peoples worst nightmare from beyond the grave’
‘Hey so how come you’re here? Have your heard of us?’
‘Yeah I’ve heard of you and you guys are my hero’s you kinda helped me through stuff…erm…Incher said this is my home until you want to get rid of me...’
‘Ok that’s cool…here are a few rules though. No beer for breakfast and that’s it...Oh yeah be nice to nick, he’s the cutest….’
‘Yeah sure thing…I need to dump this shit and get changed, incher packed for me and this top isn’t what I like’
‘Ok follow me’ as nick led me to the spare bunk I could feel my thigh vibrate and sing ‘this beat up pantry boy’ and I was right it was Hannah. I really didn’t need her now. Nick turned and saw I wasn’t bothered so started singing, it was adorable. He stopped in front of a bunk that had black sheets and a Vampire cover and a special batted pillow case. It was opposite his. Within a few moments I was topless and choosing a top from my case that WiL brought in for me. The Morrissey one won!
The door swung open and nick brought a coffee in, only for a second he blushed and shut the door taking the coffee with him. Great my hero has just seen me topless what else could get worse….?
[tea time]
All of Aiden sat around the table eating and drinking except one poor nick….he was missing. All the guys were munching on fish or veggi burgers [which I had] but they were all drinking horrible beer…..ROCKSTARRR but nick was no where to be seen… only a few words were spoke about him until he emerged from outside…
His girlfriend was coming
Becky’s point of view
I still have no idea why I turned him down..but now im bigger than him and also more personal to the fans… and now he’s wanting my help…..i don’t love him anymore and I broke of contact with all the guys…….damm my life is soo messed up…….tomorrow I’ll think about the message.
Rachel’s point of view
“FRANK GET YOUR LASY ARSE HERE PRONTO!” I shouted at the top of my lungs I swear ever since the ‘thing’ with Becky leaving me and frank have become ‘one’. To be honest I do miss her that’s why I sent her a text last night……I don’t really know if I want a reply I know either way one of us will regret the text and now im that person.
“What do ya want babes…im trying to sleep its 6am on a Sunday”
“I texted Becky last night an-“
“You did what? o.O you’ve spoken to her? Why now why not when she left? Why oh why now? Does Gerard know? Are you going to tell him?”
“Wait one thing at once Frankie…yes I’ve spoken to her..Sort of, because now is her birthday, no Gerard doesn’t know and I will do in the future.”
“But you have to tell him……it was his wife that left-“
“Not wife frank they were together but she turned him down remember?”
“Good as babe…….you got a reply yet?
[Hey Rach my sexy lover answer my freaking text love]
“Scary……… she just texted me”
“What does it say?”
You know I am not coming back…..
I’m sorry for leaving with no warning and I’m not going to
Say sorry to Gerard because I done nothing wrong…
I hope can you see that….I do miss you and I’m soo close, yet soo far.
Xx
<3 xxwebbobitchxxx
“Now are you going to tell him?”
“Er…-“
“Er? You have to….you’ve been friends with her since she was 9….she’s 27 now that’s 18years…..can’t you see it?”
“No leave it Frank I’m going out”
[DOOR SLAMS]
How can she say that she’s not sorry? She left here on her birthday and left Gerard hanging…..I know what this means but I don’t want to lie to anyone…Gerard’s going to kill me…..im soo close, yet so far…she’s in Newark a place where we used to go and think about everything, a place on your on. I’ts only 5 miles away but I have no idea if she wants to know me it’s been so long and I’ve changed a bit and I know Becky changes so freaking much in a month let alone 8 bloody years!!
[TIME ELAPSE]
This crowd is really mental and im the controller of the crowd tonight. Ah I am so lucky to have left all those years ago…this is the most ‘rawr’ crowd I’ve seen in 10 years…..it’s just fucking amazing…but it would be even better if Mum and Dad were here….Or even Simon but that’s life Mum is in Australia having fun with the family and Dads in NJ and Simon is on the Europe tour and I’m left with a fucking awesome crowd.
Why did I reply to Rachels txt? I’ve just given away where I am. And if franks with her then I know he’s going to tell Gerard and I know he’ll try and come and get answers and im not going to give him any…not right now….not ever. I just left because I was pregnant and he asked me to marry him…. I was only 19 and the life I had was was like a dream come true…but I loved him but I wasn’t in love with him….i have to stop thinking about the ‘thing’.
“SO I SAID YOU WANNA HEAR A NEW SONG?”
Crowd:”YEAH”
“GIVE ME A FUCK YOU IF YOU WANNA HEAR ANSWERS”
“FUCK YOU!!
As I leave, you don’t ask why
When I lay crying in my own lies
Then I look and see you want help
My help,
Oh this is gonna be SWEET
It’s been so long,
Still no answers!
All the time waiting wanting finding my WAY
Out of this life
Shut up just stop the lies
That you keep talking
Stop the lies from hearts that’s breaking
SHUT IT UP
With all the answers
Never know…what they even are
All I want is these damm answers
Too hard to even tell you
It’s black rock to see you drinking
Its black rock for these answers
[Spoken]
To hard to give you answers
Its black rock to see you drinking
Its hurts to see you using...
So...
Bring true rock and metal and punk back
Let’s drink all the alcohol till we're alcoholics
And use up all the drugs off the American sidewalks
“COME ON
“YOU SUCK”
“AWW SEE WE’RE THE PEOPLE YOU HAVE TO LOVE TO HATE”
That was the best show I have done……but now my stomach hurts like hell but I haven’t eaten in 2 days just drank coffee…mmmmm coffee I really need some but Starbucks is shutL and the coffee machine of the bus is fucked and oh yeah they don’t supply you with a coffee thing in the dressing room.
[OUTSIDE NEAR TOUR BUS]
“Babes….BECKY!?”
“fuck!”
(Becky turns round)
“Gerard…….”
“Babes it’s you fuck I thought you were dead”
“Erm.. hi Gee”
“whats happened you’ve changed”
“yeah….how did you know I was here?”
“I didn’t James the photographer is one of my friends and said there was a fuckin amazing band and he needed help to get pictures of them”
“Oh…how did you know that I am well me?”
“I haven’t seen you in 8 years but your walk hasn’t changed…babes I still love you”
“…….Fuck”
This woman is basically like WOW, you know when you start having a go for no reason it upsets her and also pisses me off!
Lindsey is really sweet and is amazingly 'normal' yes i said 'normal', she's a plain Jane, she might not be the perfect woman for Gerard but none of us can say anything against her because we don't know her like Gerard or Kitty does do we?
NO!
Yes this is almost the same as the one i done for Eliza Cuts but STUFF YOU!
LINDSEY is here to STAY, she is here for the REAL fans of hers. I have nothing against her and she is so sweet it's shocking, and i still can't understand quite why people are calling her FAKE,POSER,TART,USER because honestly she isn't any of them...don't you see that?
Yes she might annoy you, but i don't know why...could it be because she is sweet and honest and keeps promies? or maybe because she is with 'YOUR' man? or even because you don't get what she is or why she is here?
People this is annoying for me and yes i do know Lindsey not personal but i have connections to other celebs and realy it hurts to see you attack them for no apparent reaosn.
AGH now do you understand?
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LINDSEY(LYN-Z) she was almost like my camera whore for the night, I'm standing front row camera clicking awayand each time i tried to get a picture of Kitty or Steve or even Jimmy she came into camera view! it's fantastic because she is uber flexiable and the back-bends made me go 'mmmmmm....that looks like that hurts' but i took like loads of pics of her.Also after the show she gave me a nickname-FRONT ROW GIRL-and strangely enoughshe knew who i was...when the show finished we had a picture taken and i questioned her about being lindseyxxx on buzzet and she shot me the 'i know youfrom there fuck' loook and then said no :( but what she tod me on messages came true last night so make your mind up!
KITTY she was just so WOW that woman knows how to shop, she was just so amazing she was so polite to me after the show she just talked+talked to me and Hannah until she got called away and then she came back..thats what call devotion to fans! Whilst talking to her she signed my arm ticket and bag and now all 3 things i don't want to loose ever! be fre the show she went shopping and she has a soul like a teenager and she is so open and she wants to come play at Norwich again and i don't blame her it rocks here!
JIMMY was just so mental and i have made soo many people jelouse of my hand and arm! also people are jelouse of Hannahs cheek as he kissed it..that guy is so damm freaky hes amazingly normal! all night i trying to get pictures of him but all i got was either his hair or the celing due to him standing on things on stage.He signed mt ticket but not my arm:( but he did lick my arm and my hand so i gave him a kiss and threw my tie on stage...and he took it off stage with him.
STEVE was so stevey like.Moving around on stage like a drugged up Jimmy crossed with Kitty he just was so funny to watch.He singed everything of mine and he gave me his pick which will be used when i play my bass.He layed on stage with me shouting 'STEVE GET OVER HERE I NEED U TO SIGN TIS PLEASE!' with that he finally got upand came over..i took his picture and he wasn't to happy as he wasn't ready but he let me keep it anyway.
Overall the show was amazing and Hannah and I didn't ant to leave, Mindless Self Indulgence are so sweet its almost the opposite of what you think they'd be.Unfortunitly i forgot to give Lindsey her card but it's just geat to know i've met my Hero's wife who is uber awsome who is also a herroin(?)of mine. I'm so sorry this is long but this is only half of the night, you really needed to be there to understand the night and the experience was freaking awsome.I hope they come back soon and next time i'll find away to get backstage and speako the band more, they seriously are so good words can't explain them.
xxwebbobitchxxx
or as LYN-Z calls me
FRONT ROW GIRL!
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